Something in me gets a bit triggered when I hear someone talk about their ‘journey’.
I don’t know what it is, it just seems a bit cringey and something that people say on Masterchef or American Idol.
But when you go from one place and go through a whole lot of shit and come out in another place, what else can you call it?
My journey, like yours, is a life-long one of course.
None of us are who we were, even last week.
But for me, I have been measuring my own journey not on what I have attained or gathered, but what I have gotten back.
As you know if you have read Reboot Your Thinking, when I was a kid some bad stuff happened to me.
Someone hurt me, and they took a lot of stuff from me. From my life.
And here I am, 35 years later, slowly claiming some of them back one by one.
I was a musical kid. I used to love making music and spent hours every day doing it. It was one of the great loves of my life and I met so many great people through it.
And at the peak of me learning how to be a musical person, someone came into my life and took it from me.
For literally decades since then, I have never wanted to touch a musical instrument or make any kind of music because when I did, all I could think of was them.
So I hid it. Pushed it down and out of my mind. Forgot it.
Until this week.
As strong and powerful as darkness and hate and shame are, light and love and joy are just as strong.
And sometimes I just have to choose one to extinguish the other.
This week I was able to sit down again for only the second time in about 30 years and just play.
And, honestly, I have been playing ever since.
I believed somebody had taken something from me that I love, but in reality I gave it to them.
Nobody can take my happiness.
They can trick me, and hurt me, and they can try to associate the good shit with their bad shit, but eventually, the light wins.
What I can do.
I can re-take the light. And so can you.
I used to think that someone can make me feel shit. That someone can make me feel small. And, of course, that someone can make me feel happy.
But that’s not true. Only I can do those things.
Today, and maybe just for today, what can you re-take from your life that maybe you are feeling like someone took from you?
I would love to hear about what those things are in the comments on this post below.
I hope you can find some of your lost power today. Find some of your light. And just play.